Today has sucked ass again. I must have the largest self-esteem problem in the world. That and I get a swollen eye and rugburn across the face because I said “How does it feel to be from Missouri now?” when the Rams lost the Superbowl. Women are attracted to my nincompoop roommate in droves, I think he has 4 or 5 right now…whereas anytime I try I just end up shooting myself in the foot or feet or even blow off an appendage. Fuck Me. I miss my boys from back home. I always had a good time with them. I have a lot of pent up aggression that I have been unable to relieve through fencing. Since I am not a physically violent person I can’t beat the shit out of someone. Mebbe I am striving against a force much more powerful than myself. God, Fate, Murphy’s Law, the Everlasting Gobstacle? I should just give up on it and resign myself to being single…maybe I’ll become a priest…