i’ve done my part, but nothing has come of it. i have received no sign from her that she might be interested in what i have to offer. i was a good friend, i helped her move out, i wrote to her in Spain, i wrote her a poem, i visited her when she was sick, i listened to her frustrations, i sent her flowers, i tried to woo.
i didn’t get much feedback. we just talked. she never got close, never flirted back. i don’t see how she could not realize that i liked her. perhaps that was still the case, perhaps she did realize but was uninterested and decided that pretending to be ignorant of my attentions was a good way to avoid it, perhaps she does realize, returns the feeling, but is scared like i was, perhaps she is not yet recovered from her last boyfriend. none of that matters. i’ve been told to just tell these girls how i feel, but that is terrible advice. its creepy to hear that, it scares girls off. i know.
i’ve made my effort, and have not even received a negative response, no response definitely hurts less, but is even less constructive.
so i’m done. i wash my hands of the pursuit of her. it hurts a bit because she is quite attractive in so many ways, but without even the slightest reciprocation on her part, i have no impetus to continue.
no lasting relationship is a one way street. how long anything lasts with her, is now up to her. i’ve done more than my share.
I’ve faced the fathoms in your deep
withstood the suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
appease you
the wind blows and I knowI can’t go on, digging roses from you grave
to linger on, beyond the beyond
where the willows weep
and whirlpools sleep, you’ll find me
the coarse tide reflects skyThe Smashing Pumpkins, Behold! The Night Mare
you’re back! thanks for the ray of hope. i will re-add you to the linklist. i like the snazzy new stuff, and your girl does got talent, like the bowie one especially.
you never know… sometimes these things have a way of coming around later, when you don’t expect it. maybe the time is not right for her. interesting lyric by the Pumpkins btw, wasn’t familiar with that.
When you’re feeling blue, just think to yourself: At least I haven’t BJ levels, thank God. Because once you get there, that’s the pt of no return.
By the way, Bard: that’s a sweet site you’ve got.
Nice blurb in the News-Examiner yesterday on your graduation Harv. Congrats on all you’ve accomplished. More accomplishments are on the way. All facets of life will happen for you, don’t worry.
hey, thanks, Born Joyless — i hope it brought you some of the joy you were born without. 😉 Harvey — thanks for the kind words, will pass them on to her. i like your site’s new format.
Neal’s right–even if he does like the Foo Fighters.